My last two jobs have been evening and night jobs. This fits conveniently into my life.
I have not been able to sleep during the night time hours for more than two consecutive nights since I was a very tiny child. I can remember being about six or seven years old, rolling around in my bed to no avail. I would creep over to the bookshelf to collect all of my favorite books and I would deposit them in my bed for what was sure to be a long night. This happened nearly every evening. The spines of many of my books actually fell apart from my late night reading.
I've been trying to figure out how to fix my sleeping problem for years.
I can be completely exhausted and not fall asleep.
I think I just lack the ability to lower the volume on my thoughts in order to relax.
When I finally do slumber, I think I am actually just passing out. Like my body just goes into complete protest and my mind races right up until the point of no return.
Tonight is another in a myriad of attempts to right the pattern.
Maybe since I stayed up and just saw the sunrise, I can hold out all the way through the day today, and on through work tonight. Then maybe my body will protest at the right hour for once.
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